4 Months & Counting!!!

Current mood:content

It's hard to believe that in 4 short months, I'll be a married woman.  I'm sure y'all are VERY sick of hearing about this at this point -- CLAY is very sick of hearing about it haha!  Poor guy just wants to hurry up and be my husband already...  Alas, today is the "4 months away" mark and I'm so giddy!!!

On another subject...  I'm DEFINITELY in a better place than my December blog.  Christmas came and went, just like it does every year.  There were moments of sadness, but more moments of joy.  I think that's what counts, right?  My grandmother is still hanging in there.  She puts up a pretty good front, but she's basically a broken woman at this point.  Clay and I have decided to have my mother and my grandmother walk me down the aisle in the absence and honor of my father and my grandfather.  How lucky can I be to be able to have that in my life?!

Christmas Day marked 2 years of sobriety for me!!!  I picked up my chip the following night, and had my grandmother, my mother, my fiance, my future mother-in-law and her boyfriend all there to support me.  Along with a host of friends that I've made in the rooms.  I was sooooo nervous though!  Every time I even TOUCHED the podium the microphone would start bouncing up and down...  You see, last year, Clay proposed right before I got up there to pick up my 1 year chip.  That TOTALLY calmed my nerves...  BUT I made it through nonetheless!

One of my very best-friends decided to up and leave me last month   She moved to Atlanta, GA and I miss her like CRAZY.  I know she's there for a reason, and that it's a gooooood move for her.  But I'm selfish, and I want her here...  Although no one can replace her (or even come close) I've been able to draw closer to the other women in the program.  I never though I would need or even really WANT a host of women to rely upon.  But they truly are my support net when my ass is falling off (and even when it's not!).  

New Year's Resolutions:  
1.)  Workout at least 4 times a week, 1 of those days being in our backyard
2.)  Dive even deeper into the program, strengthen my connection
3.)  Get married to my BEST FRIEND
4.)  Live ONE day at a time...

Yep, I think those are reasonable...  Till next time my friends!