Current mood:
blessed
The thing about the springtime is that the flowers are abloom, the grass gets greener, the birds are chirping... Yea... Cause it’s doing nothing but RAINING... We get teaser days, right, where the sun is out and it’s hot and beautiful... Only to be followed by 4 or 5 days in a row of cruddy ass weather! The weekend is just right around the corner, I sure hope mother nature realizes that I want it to be pretty haha blessed
Enough of that... Well, April sure has arrived! In exactly 12 days, I will have a new cousin/sister-in-law!! Before you get off on some hillbilly tangent, I’m not an inbred fool. My cousin and I grew up with one another, he’s always been just as close to me as a brother (or what my perception of a brother would be seeing how I certainly don’t have one of those...) Anyway, he’s marrying his best-friend on the 22nd. They are completely a match made in heaven! I’m so very excited to welcome her into the family with open arms full of love... I’m very honered to be able to report that I will be a bridesmaid in this wedding -- what a blessing! We went out for her bachelorette party and I was actually the DD!!! Can you believe it?! We had so much fun, went to Gruene, Texas, ate some bomb-diggity food, and saw the Nitty Gritty Dirt Band live! The best part of all of that was being able to suit up and show up for a very close person in my life... Completely letting her enjoy herself and not have to worry about who was going to drive, or how she was going to get home... It’s times like that that I truly realize the blessings of me getting sober... One last shout out for them, "To Robert and Kaitlin, I only wish the happiest of times for the ones that held my hand when I was at my utmost unhappiest of times... I loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you forever and ever
"It’s funny how a person’s outlook can change over the years, over months, even over a weekend. I went to a conference last weekend. While I was there I kept hearing, "This experience will change your life!" I totally wasn’t prepared for the emotional tidalwave that was about to crash down on my world... But, somehow, I came out of it with my head held high, with a new perspective on life. It’s very easy for me to get bogged down with the bullshit that comes with being an adult. Mostly... Money... Oiy! I can become this crazed woman with only one thing on my mind... The biggest thing I learned from this past weekend is that God, the program, Clay, Toby... THOSE are the important things in my life! I have to make sure those things are taken care of before anything else... I guess what I’m trying to say is that I, like a lot of people, have lost folks in my life FAR too early. I really realized that I live in today, not tomorrow, not yesterday. Now... What I do in today filters over into tomorrow and the next and the next... Therefore, I need today to be the best it can be, with respect to everything in it. Especially the things that are the most important! I came home with this new perspective and the first thing Clay wanted to talk to me about was money and bills. I told him, "Just for right now, possibly for the whole day, I don’t want to talk about that. We’re okay, we’re going to be okay. We’re going to pay everyone we can, and figure the other stuff out when it comes up. We don’t have any more money than we have, so let’s not fret about it... I have no idea how long I will feel this way so you better embrace it! I missed you..." He looked at me as though I was an alien!!!
Ha ha ha... Anyway, things are just beautiful and fantastic. I’m so happy to be alive, and so grateful for each day that I get to wake up instead of coming to
As always, thanks for reading and coming along with me on my journeys each month. Growing up is a hard job, but is something we all must do. Thanks for growing with me!
