Current mood:
excited
Well, hello... Last month was far too busy for words! The anniversary party was a hit! I'm so happy that I was able to pull that together for my grandparents, but am soooo thankful it's over with. All the various parties and events that were scheduled throughout the month came and went. We had the time of our lives at the 62nd Anniversary in Austin Party!excitedMom, like the last time, came and went. I was so very excited for her to arrive! Things started off great, but, unlike the last time, they got weird... Maybe it was the length of time, maybe it was not knowing when the next time would be, maybe it was dependence on me for rides, maybe it was giving up my bed and sleeping on the futon, maybe it was just simply I've grown up (even if just a little...) and she has issues letting go... I love her with all of my heart and look forward to when she lives here, but we're definitely different people... I was very sad when she left and know that I will rejoice when I see her again. It's nice to be able to be honest with her and tell her all those things...
December 28, 2007 proved to be a night I'll never forget. As most of you know I was blessed with a year of sobriety on Christmas Day. The 28th was my celebration night, my birthday night if you will... The tradition is to start with the longest amount of sobriety and work all the way down to those of us that were celebrating 1 year! At 20 years, Clay leaned into me while I was graciously opening my presents and whispered, "When you're done with that, I need to talk to you..." His tone was strange, and he had an "off" look on his face. I was worried so I scurried all my belongings to the side. I mouthed "Right now?" I received a nod... "Like outside??" Another nod. My stomach is fluttering at this point - you see, I'm completely oblivious to what's going on... We start out the front door of Northland, and I've now realized something big is about to happen, normally we'd have gone to the back porch... As we're walking, I start grilling him with questions,
"Where are we going?"
"Over here..."
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing..."
"Are you mad at me? What'd I do?"
"Nothing... Just walk..."
We arrive at the middle of the parking lot, at the back of my car. He spoke the words that no girl ever wants to hear, "You know I love you right?" My heart sank past my stomach, all the way to my toes... First thought that ran through my mind "Are you kidding me? He's breaking up with me on my birthday night?! This is FUCKED..." but all I could say was "yea..."
"How much do you think I love you?"
"More than anything ~ at least that's what you tell me..."
"That's right. Here we are in the parking lot, I've brought you out here cause this is our spot. This is where you made me wait an entire month before you'd go out with me, or even give me your phone number! Where we began... I've brought you out here to ask - (lowers himself to one knee) - Will You Marry Me?"
I'm pretty sure my response wasn't even English... We hugged for a moment before I asked him to put the ring on my finger. He was a nervous wreck, while holding the ring up while popping the question, he'd been shaking so bad that he'd wriggled the ring loose from it's holder in the box!
He grabbed my right hand, I informed him that was the wrong hand, then he gracefully slid my beautiful engagement ring on...I'm so happy! Although going from "girlfriend" which I know, which I'm comfortable with to "fiance" in a matter of seconds is mildly overwhelming, I'm getting used to it
So here we are at 2008. It's a new year. I am beginning my new life. And I have a new title of "fiance" I'm very much looking forward to the year ahead... I'm very grateful for 2007. I gained so much last year, it could hardly be put into words... I'm so happy for all the people that I've met and for all the friends I've gained. If 2008 is anywhere close to 2007, I'm in for a hell of a ride!!!
